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[exobubz]

sometimes, i feel really tired of having the responsibility of being sane. i feel sympathy when people tell me that they're depressed and that they're having "thoughts again"..... but sometimes i can't help but wonder if it's selfish of them to expect me to have to take care of their mental well-being, to comfort them, to be strong for them...when i'm in equal need for the same thing? i dont know... why does it feel like i have to smile for them because i dont want them to feel the way they feel even though i feel alone, too. like, who's selfish? me or them? i dont want to be the reason why they slip further down, but they're holding onto a person who's well-being is just as shitty.

i dont know :/ i feel like i'm taking care of people who i can't even take care of myself

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[neomujoah.livejournal.com]

having mental issues or illness or even just a life problem doesn't make it okay for a person to rely on another person. because of the stigma surrounding mental issues, no one talks about it so it's kind of ingrained in society for people to either rely solely on others and then either get away with it or be cast out. it's difficult for you probably because you don't want to get taken advantage of but also you're struggling not to be "that guy" who tosses people away for not being perfect.

the only way to solve this is if you set your own boundaries firmly. i hope that it possible in your situation. it can be difficult for a LOT of reasons but i hope you're able to take care of yourself first.