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sometimes, i feel really tired of having the responsibility of being sane. i feel sympathy when people tell me that they're depressed and that they're having "thoughts again"..... but sometimes i can't help but wonder if it's selfish of them to expect me to have to take care of their mental well-being, to comfort them, to be strong for them...when i'm in equal need for the same thing? i dont know... why does it feel like i have to smile for them because i dont want them to feel the way they feel even though i feel alone, too. like, who's selfish? me or them? i dont want to be the reason why they slip further down, but they're holding onto a person who's well-being is just as shitty.

i dont know :/ i feel like i'm taking care of people who i can't even take care of myself