STORY TIME: How Charles Ended Up With This Mess (His version)

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Charle's version to our story!

Oh hello, as you may or may not know, Fara and I are a thing. Yes, an actual thing, as in I’m dating her, as in her dad would kill me if he knew I am her boyfriend. Anyways, the reason I stand, well type, before you all today is to tell you all my side of the story of how Fara and I got together. Well, here goes nothing, literally expect nothing because Fara’s story is probably better and longer than mine anyways:

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It all started when I moved into the dorms. Here I am, in the burning heat, moving my luggage from my car to my room. I didn’t know what to expect, all I knew was that I’m in a new place free to live however I wanted to. I roomed with my friends (which I strongly suggest that you don’t, but more on this topic later) and expected to make new friends and potentially even date someone. It’s my first year in college, anything can happen. However, I couldn’t get side tracked, main priority: education. For the first couple of days or so, I stuck to the side of my friends and roommates, Edmond and Andrew. Since we were literally the first door in the hallway, I remember being uneasy exploring down the halls because I legit had no idea what to expect. Basically, I was shy to meet new people, even though I was really excited to make new friends. I don’t think it went as well as I originally planned because Fara later confessed to me, after we got closer, that she saw me as a creep and a weird person.

Anyways, the first couple of weeks I only met a few of people on the floor. I had no idea Fara existed (sorry Fara but deal with it lol). As time passed, I realized there was this girl that I kept seeing on the floor, but never had the chance to talk to. During this stranger phase, I vaguely remember her facing my way for like a split second and I thought “hey, I’ll be nice and wave to her”, but as soon as I made the gesture, she turned and walked the opposite direction. I guess she saw my reflection off of a window because she turned around and awkwardly smiled at me, flashed one quick hand up then quickly retreated somewhere. I knew it was an awkward first impression, but I knew it would get better as the year progressed. Besides, I thought at that time, she doesn’t even know who I am so how much could she judge me based off of one thing… let’s just say I underestimated her.

I believe I waved to her every time I saw her, I’m not completely sure, but if I did, it would always come with a forced smile along with a forced wave back. Oh well right? OH another interaction with her was the bike scene. Here, I am walking to get my parked bike so I can go to class, but the lock was being stubborn. I wouldn’t have minded spending time trying to picklock my own bike lock, but guess who shows up behind me? Yup, Fara. So the pressures is on. All I knew was that she wasn’t that excited to see me. Her face said it all. She watched me as I struggled with my bike lock, so eventually I just gave up after like 30 seconds. I felt bad for holding her up, so of course, I let her go first then I continued my struggle. Even though this is still during the stranger phase, I still felt bad for being a burden and wasting her time just because I was incapable of unlocking my bike lock. I did eventually end up unlocking it btw, thank you very much.

I don’t exactly remember how we actually became part of the same friend group, but I remember her hanging out a lot with Andrew and Edmond. I was just there. At this time, I was on good terms with Andrew and Edmond, so I didn’t mind having Fara over at our room so much because I would occasionally hang out with them too. Since this was Fall Quarter, most of my attention was towards making new friends and going out to chill with them. I knew that people were against Floorcest (as in you can’t date your own floormates) so that took away the option from dating anyone on my floor. If anything, I sought new friends and maybe a new girlfriend outside of my floor rather than on my floor. I strongly believed that I couldn’t like anyone on my floor because it just wasn’t accepted in college. (I’m just trying to fit in! I want to be liked, cut me some slack lol)

The next few couple of weeks was just me adjusting to the new environment. I made new friends, went to some parties and raves, it was an amazing time. I also had a crush on this girl (not named Fara), and being me, I had to share this with someone. Guess who I shared this with? I trusted Fara (idk why but I just did) so I told her everything. I had one closer friend at that time, Carlos, but for some reason I felt more comfortable telling her rather than him. BUT, I didn’t tell her the name of the person I liked because I didn’t want to make it official, basically admitting it to myself. When I finally came to terms with myself, I told her I liked someone else in our neighboring building. I went on a 26 hour date with this person, which consisted of a movie, eating at restaurants, walking during the night, playing games, staying up until the sun came out, blah blah blah. All of this happened and I told my crush I have some feelings for her, but thankfully for the better, she didn’t reciprocate my feelings. I was sad that my first crush during college didn’t like me back but still, it’s college and there are many other people out there. I ended up apologizing to this girl and saying hopefully we remain friends, which we did. This is the sidetracked moment Fara keeps bringing up lol

One good thing did come from this though, Fara and I got closer. I was able to tell her everything, like EVERYTHING. I told her some stuff that only a select few know, and some stuff that I never actually admitted to myself.

Of course, this translated into us hanging out more and actually having casual conversations. I remember us playing Grand Theft Auto 5 just for the heck of it even though we knew we should be studying (she still sucks at driving unfortunately). During this phase, I remember she told me something in Bisaya. Being the monolingual person I am, I had no idea what she said. I asked to her to repeat it, but that didn’t help my understanding at all. So being the smart person I am, I pulled out my phone and opened up a voice recording app. I asked her to repeat what she said, then I was going to replay it to my cousin who understands. She said something different, but at that time, I thought she said the same thing. She eventually confessed what she said, but she translated the other version, not the original. Later did I find out that what she said was that she confessed she liked me.

Everything was swell and dandy until issues with my roommates come up. Yes, I am going to rant about my roommates because this helps progress the story (I think). NEVER, EVER get a dorm with your friends, especially if his name is Andrew; Edmond I’m okay with. (Im going to be skipping around in time just to get out everything at once so yeah). Let’s say for instance you want to do your laundry on a Monday, then suddenly you can’t because one of your roommates, whose name I will not share but start with an A, tells you “No Charles you can’t. You’re going to do laundry with us on the weekend.” I was like… uhhh okay… Another instance is when you leave your dorm for a week or so to go study for FINALS (and I repeat FINALS, you know the final examinations that help determine your overall grade). So, I went to my sister’s house to go study there. I left my place all clean and stuff so when I got back, it would be clean. As I was studying for finals at my sister’s place, guess what my roommates do? They pull a prank on the floor. See I didn’t know about the prank until MUCH MUCH later. Basically, they messed up the room (including my side without my permission and I felt soooooo disrespected) and made it look like someone stole all of our stuff. They hid my friend’s computers which were in there as well (FINALS WEEK: so they couldn’t study). There was even this one guy on the floor who actually HAD HIS STUFF STOLEN in the dorms, so he felt bad for us. I can’t imagine the disappointment he had on his face once he found out it was a prank. So everyone was mad at them and it was justified right!?! Well guess what? Andrew decides to be mad at the floor for being mad at him. I’M LIKE WTF, THIS WAS YOUR FAULT.

One last thing, I swear, I tried so many times to fix the situation between me and Andrew. I went to go talk to my RA (Resident Advisor), tried to make small talk, hell I even confronted him about the situation (because he usually just shies away from EVERYTHING) telling him that “Andrew we need to fix this awkward tension between us… You’re my friend and I still care about you” (basically all that crap that I meant during that time ALSO I was crying because I wanted to fix everything). I also asked if we could start over and if he’s willing to take up that offer. BUT GUESS WHAT?! He responds with “I just hate you. I don’t know why, I resolved the other issues I had with you, but I just hate you.” I’M LIKE BITCH PLEASE in my head. So you can see why I don’t like my roommates and now that I’m done ranting, I can say how this ties in with Fara.

This was around the time I got my GoPro. Let me just say, every time I have like a sudden interest, I pursue it until I get it. This phase was trying to figure out how to use my GoPro. I would mount the GoPro to the bike and bike everywhere. I was alone for the first couple of rides, but I asked Fara if she wanted to come. I thought it’d be fun to not bike alone. I gave her the GoPro, which she mounted on her head, and we were off. It was fun for a while because we actually kept track of how far we biked and all that (I miss these days).

Remember how I didn’t like my roommates? Well, one day I couldn’t deal with them, I was just done. With Fara basically living there, she slept with Andrew (-.- But thankfully nothing happened), I suggested for her to sleep on my bed while I find somewhere else to sleep. It was a way for me to cope with everything I guess. She basically replaced me and I was fine with that, so I told her to sleep on my bed. See the funny thing is, she joked about replacing me in the room because I am Filipino and she’s also Filipino. I felt like she actually did, so it was only right to give her my bed. I had no business being there and my roommates like her way more than me so it was only right.

I swear, Fara was mad at me. The look she gave me were signs of her anger and the repeated no’s after insisting her to sleep on my bed. I felt bad but I felt that it was right. Somewhere along this talk, she just went to my room and hopped on my bed. She expected me to sleep with her that night, but I hesitated. She got on my bed and I went to go turn off the lights on the opposite side of the room. I took one step towards my bed and stood there silently. I was debating whether or not to leave my room or go on my bed. I eventually just sat there for a good 2 minutes because I felt horrible. After I made up my mind, I got up and climbed in bed. I apologized to Fara at least a dozen times for what I put her through and for making her mad at me. I’m sorry that I made you mad, but thank you for being there for me.

…. yeah...

I fell asleep.

So apparently after this turning points in our lives, I became more hmmmmm touchy? LOL Idk that’s how Fara describes it to me. I just remember being there for her when she needed someone and I would try and be closer to her, but that’s about it. I remember one time with my friend Carlos, but nah I’m good (to save me from the embarrassment).

I think at the time, I knew what I was doing, but at the same time, I just went with it.

SKIP ALL THE WAY TO WHEN FARA WENT HOME.

So Fara went home, as stated above, for the weekend. She left, but I started texting her, something I have never done before. I texted her, but understand, I tried really hard texting her. I would read over my texts multiple times just to make sure it was worthy to send to her. I wanted to be playful but stupid but funny at the same time. I realized this mistake, so I told her to give me a second because this wasn’t the real me. If she liked me for me, she would like the way I talk too. So after coming to this understanding, I texted her normally and it felt naturally compared to the artificial and carefully planned texts I have sent earlier. If you could see our texts from the beginning of February, you would see the huge difference.

I was acting like this because I was nervous. I didn’t want to make a bad impression of myself. I wanted her to like me because I admitted to myself that I like her. So we texted each other and I got the feeling she liked me, but I wasn’t sure. One important thing to note, after she left the dorms, I started talking to my roommates just a little bit more than usual. I put the two and two together, so I eventually asked Fara if it was okay if she went back to her room. She agreed and was going to do it anyways so it worked out fine, but some part of me still felt bad for kicking her out. Later that night, I went home too.

BUT, oh gosh, BUT when I got back, I walked into my room and guess what I see? I saw Fara in Andrew’s arms. I was like oh… okay. I was holding my laundry bag, placed it down then left the room. I wanted nothing to do with any of them. I was done, so I went to Carlos’s room.

Later in the evening, I texted Fara asking if I could talk to her. She agreed and we went to my friend’s room. The main reason I wanted to talk to her was to see how she was feeling about moving out. At this point, I still felt bad for kicking her out of the room so I just wanted to get a quick update. Let’s just say it turned out to be a little bit more than expected.

We laid on my friend’s bed and a conversation turned to a cuddle which turned to an intimate moment, ending with a kiss. This was our first kiss and I’m bad at describing this so refer to Fara’s version if you want a clear picture (if she described it). If I was to describe it; however, I would describe it as playful. LOL I would put my forehead against her forehead, touch noses, kiss her hand and when I tried to kiss her, she would just swerve or hide her head on my chest. Eventually, I got her and we had our first kiss. It was awesome :) <3 (Although I still joke with her about it because it was slightly awkward LOLOL)

This week was eventful. If you want an idea of what happened, I’ll link you to the video. In essence, I didn’t ask Fara to be my girlfriend yet, so I prepared a little surprise for her before she left to her EXO Concert. I kissed her on Sunday and prepared this whole Valentine’s Day/Girlfriend thing to be done on Friday. The struggle was real with this one OMG. Actually no I’m going to tell you what happened. So I planned to decorate Fara’s room on Friday (Valentine’s Day was on Sunday, BUT she was leaving for an EXO concert so the best time was to do it Friday). I took my GoPro and recorded the whole process. Throughout the week, I was secretly gathering the supplies and making posters, while being with Fara and walking the lake late at night. I remember Thursday I was sooooo stressed out because I wanted everything to go perfect because in my mind, she has never had this happen before and it would be my pleasure to give her what she deserved. BUT guess what happened on Thursday??? Andrew confessed that he liked her and all, OMG…. I was like THIS RUINED TOMORROW because she would be sad that she rejected him in favor for me and it was just a complete mess. Thankfully, I had friends who went to go get flowers for me while I comforted Fara because she was sad that night. I made her feel better and Friday went according to plan.

Let me just say one quick thing, I was nervous af. LOL

I apologize for getting this to you late. We were supposed to finish this before our 3 months together, but midterms/finals came up and we both got busy. I am really happy to be with you. It’s summer and literally I need you to make me feel complete (as corny as that sounds). I am the happiest when I am with you and I will always be grateful to have you by my side. Despite what you may think of me (as in why am I putting up with you), I enjoy every second with you. Everyone has their ups and downs and I’m glad I can be there to support you and cheer you on. Thank you for making me happy, and I just hope I can do the same for you, I will ALWAYS be here for you if you ever need me.

Happy 4 months Fara! <3