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Happy New Year! & Hello 2015
Happy New Year!
2015 is here and to be honest, this year was, overall, sh*t. However bad it was, however, you can't ignore good things that came with it. For me, these 12 months have been eventful. On a good point, I think my writing has improved to a degree, but at the same time, sometimes it saddens me to see the way I write. Though now I'm more aware of what I write and how I write, sometimes I feel like I'm losing the life I used to have with my writing. I'm beginning to become so intently focused on plot, detail, diction, and vocab amongst other things, I feel like I'm losing that life, that sense of humor my work had when I first began. So with the improvement, of course, comes the bitter repurcussion.
I haven't truly reflected on myself and this year until now while I'm writing this at 12:28 am, well into January 1st, but time alone to think to myself isn't the most unpleasant thing in the world. It gives me a chance to say thanks to things and people I am grateful for.
First and foremost, my parents. I was slightly angered by my dad earlier this evening, but what can I do. He's my dad and he'll always be there for me. With all these countries near or in war, all I can do is think about how lucky I am that I'm not there. A few days ago, I was scrolling my tumblr dash and one of the kids from Key Club reblogged a photoset of children in different parts of the world going to school, and he tagged "I won a lottery being born here in California". Doesn't that make you think? It made me. So I want to say my thanks to my parents for being with me this year.
Second, I want to thank the people who read my things. I know that nowadays I am very inconsistent, and for that, I'm sorry. Nothing brings me more joy than to write, to update, and to add things to my masterlist, but sadly, life gets in the way. However, I do pride myself in not being as inactive as some authors (haha). The fact that people still read my things, that they like a work of mine that's NOT 10080 (lol) is amazing, and for that, I'm always grateful for your comments. Excuse me for the lack of replies, I'm a very lazy person but that doesn't mean I don't read them or appreciate them all. Blame me for my lack of motivation. I'm sorry haha.
I'd like to give a special thanks to my beta, M. I mentioned her in my latest 4!shot, but I'll say it again. You are the world's best beta despite how you miss some typos and kill my perfectionist self on the inside. I'm really happy your introduced yourself to me practically a year ago, and though I was hesitant on taking in a "beta" since I usually handle all my work by myself, I'm glad I accepted your offer because I didn't know I'd be getting a nice friendship out of it at all.
I don't know if they'll see this, but I want to say how amazeballs my online friends are. Thank you potatos and boobs. Thank you june babies. Thank you home scouts. Thank you all, and if you don't know what I'm thanking you for, I'm thanking you for everything.
My school friends who, to be honest, will not read this greeting, but I just need to tell you about them, because I feel like I've found my legit home. These people understand my obsession with exo and they're not at all weird. Honestly, they're social, funny, nerdy (LOTR, Hobbit, Harry Potter, AHS, etc etc), creative, and accepting of homosexuality, which is the best part because we...all...understand...ships.
I have pissed off so many darling people being who I am, being an ass, being a fartsicle, being so and so, that I simply have to say I'm sorry. It's an open apology because I don't know anyone in specific nor do I really have any desire to talk to them, but for my own soul's sake, I'm sorry u__u.
There are times when people try and make me feel bad about what I do, such as "Oh, you're just writing on fantasies" or "You write fanfiction". To be honest, it sucks being talked down on! But then I think of what I did over the year and I realize that I may not have changed THE world, but I bet I probably changed SOMEONE'S world. I've had people tell me they found their career path because of what I wrote. Others were able to tell me how they could relate to a story. I remember one instance, a boy messaged me on tumblr telling me how The Letter made him cry because the issue of Baekhyun not being able to have children struck home for this particular reader, but he told me he was glad that I had brought it up.
Sometimes, it sucks to be labeled the bitch. It sucks being called immature for speaking what I feel like at the moment and to be so angry that I can't control what I'm saying, but I think that's important. A lot of things will happen. Scandals happen, tragedies happen, and you know what? You can't "act mature" all the damn time. Some people aren't capable, some are slower than others. I do know that I've matured over this year to some degree, but if my immaturity is what people find comfort in, if it's THAT part of me that makes them think "Fara won't judge me for feeling this way. I'll go talk to her about it because she'll understand" then by all means, I'll keep my inbox open.
I have no New Years resolution. The only thing I want this year is time for myself. I want to write without external influences. I want to be stress free. And I want to be happy doing what I like to do best, which is writing. Drama will eventually find itself to me or something will get me so mad, I'll begin to rant about it on social media, someone will screenshot it, blur out my username, and the entire fandom will explode (this happened twice lol). But what can I do. I'm a passionate person in whatever mood I'm feeling, and I suppose that's both an advantage and a fault.
I suppose I could try to be a better person, a nicer one, but I don't want to lie to myself. My last church confession, I told my priest I easily get mad at people and he told me to be patient and forgiving. That night I went on twitter and someone made me mad .___. and I wasn't forgiving (I'm sorry, Father Gus).
To be honest, I'm sorry this greeting was a little sad and down, but I think it was more of like a reflection. Overall, personally, to me, this year has been good. I have my family and my friends, and they've kept me afloat for so long, it's a miracle. I hope 2014 was overall good for you, too! 2015 will hopefully be a little better, but we'll never know!
Happy New Year and I'm wishing with my buttcheeks crossed that it'll be a happier year!!!!!
I have a chanbaek fanfic planned on being written. Do you remember Crank the Bass? The 4k pwp I wrote about rockstar!yeol and coordinator!baek? My beta and I decided that I should write a REAL story (a long one) about it and we've already discussed plot and angst (haha, always). Hopefully, it'll be out in two months!
Like Nigh and Day will be finished, I swear to you, before I leave or die. Same thing goes for NI2. Hopefully both will be done this year by JUNE.
MMMM as for updates, that's all I have.
Wish for a nice year, okay *____* with love and respect to yourself.
Bye!!!!!
Ps: I drew that photo. I tried to do it Skrit9 style, but ah, fail. But it's not bad. Don't steal/edit. Just enjoy the office sexual tension!
Love you guys alot. Don't ever forget that no matter how god awful I am, I swear to you, I will always...always...love animals. ♥
I haven't truly reflected on myself and this year until now while I'm writing this at 12:28 am, well into January 1st, but time alone to think to myself isn't the most unpleasant thing in the world. It gives me a chance to say thanks to things and people I am grateful for.
First and foremost, my parents. I was slightly angered by my dad earlier this evening, but what can I do. He's my dad and he'll always be there for me. With all these countries near or in war, all I can do is think about how lucky I am that I'm not there. A few days ago, I was scrolling my tumblr dash and one of the kids from Key Club reblogged a photoset of children in different parts of the world going to school, and he tagged "I won a lottery being born here in California". Doesn't that make you think? It made me. So I want to say my thanks to my parents for being with me this year.
Second, I want to thank the people who read my things. I know that nowadays I am very inconsistent, and for that, I'm sorry. Nothing brings me more joy than to write, to update, and to add things to my masterlist, but sadly, life gets in the way. However, I do pride myself in not being as inactive as some authors (haha). The fact that people still read my things, that they like a work of mine that's NOT 10080 (lol) is amazing, and for that, I'm always grateful for your comments. Excuse me for the lack of replies, I'm a very lazy person but that doesn't mean I don't read them or appreciate them all. Blame me for my lack of motivation. I'm sorry haha.
I'd like to give a special thanks to my beta, M. I mentioned her in my latest 4!shot, but I'll say it again. You are the world's best beta despite how you miss some typos and kill my perfectionist self on the inside. I'm really happy your introduced yourself to me practically a year ago, and though I was hesitant on taking in a "beta" since I usually handle all my work by myself, I'm glad I accepted your offer because I didn't know I'd be getting a nice friendship out of it at all.
I don't know if they'll see this, but I want to say how amazeballs my online friends are. Thank you potatos and boobs. Thank you june babies. Thank you home scouts. Thank you all, and if you don't know what I'm thanking you for, I'm thanking you for everything.
My school friends who, to be honest, will not read this greeting, but I just need to tell you about them, because I feel like I've found my legit home. These people understand my obsession with exo and they're not at all weird. Honestly, they're social, funny, nerdy (LOTR, Hobbit, Harry Potter, AHS, etc etc), creative, and accepting of homosexuality, which is the best part because we...all...understand...ships.
I have pissed off so many darling people being who I am, being an ass, being a fartsicle, being so and so, that I simply have to say I'm sorry. It's an open apology because I don't know anyone in specific nor do I really have any desire to talk to them, but for my own soul's sake, I'm sorry u__u.
There are times when people try and make me feel bad about what I do, such as "Oh, you're just writing on fantasies" or "You write fanfiction". To be honest, it sucks being talked down on! But then I think of what I did over the year and I realize that I may not have changed THE world, but I bet I probably changed SOMEONE'S world. I've had people tell me they found their career path because of what I wrote. Others were able to tell me how they could relate to a story. I remember one instance, a boy messaged me on tumblr telling me how The Letter made him cry because the issue of Baekhyun not being able to have children struck home for this particular reader, but he told me he was glad that I had brought it up.
Sometimes, it sucks to be labeled the bitch. It sucks being called immature for speaking what I feel like at the moment and to be so angry that I can't control what I'm saying, but I think that's important. A lot of things will happen. Scandals happen, tragedies happen, and you know what? You can't "act mature" all the damn time. Some people aren't capable, some are slower than others. I do know that I've matured over this year to some degree, but if my immaturity is what people find comfort in, if it's THAT part of me that makes them think "Fara won't judge me for feeling this way. I'll go talk to her about it because she'll understand" then by all means, I'll keep my inbox open.
I have no New Years resolution. The only thing I want this year is time for myself. I want to write without external influences. I want to be stress free. And I want to be happy doing what I like to do best, which is writing. Drama will eventually find itself to me or something will get me so mad, I'll begin to rant about it on social media, someone will screenshot it, blur out my username, and the entire fandom will explode (this happened twice lol). But what can I do. I'm a passionate person in whatever mood I'm feeling, and I suppose that's both an advantage and a fault.
I suppose I could try to be a better person, a nicer one, but I don't want to lie to myself. My last church confession, I told my priest I easily get mad at people and he told me to be patient and forgiving. That night I went on twitter and someone made me mad .___. and I wasn't forgiving (I'm sorry, Father Gus).
To be honest, I'm sorry this greeting was a little sad and down, but I think it was more of like a reflection. Overall, personally, to me, this year has been good. I have my family and my friends, and they've kept me afloat for so long, it's a miracle. I hope 2014 was overall good for you, too! 2015 will hopefully be a little better, but we'll never know!
Happy New Year and I'm wishing with my buttcheeks crossed that it'll be a happier year!!!!!
I have a chanbaek fanfic planned on being written. Do you remember Crank the Bass? The 4k pwp I wrote about rockstar!yeol and coordinator!baek? My beta and I decided that I should write a REAL story (a long one) about it and we've already discussed plot and angst (haha, always). Hopefully, it'll be out in two months!
Like Nigh and Day will be finished, I swear to you, before I leave or die. Same thing goes for NI2. Hopefully both will be done this year by JUNE.
MMMM as for updates, that's all I have.
Wish for a nice year, okay *____* with love and respect to yourself.
Bye!!!!!
Ps: I drew that photo. I tried to do it Skrit9 style, but ah, fail. But it's not bad. Don't steal/edit. Just enjoy the office sexual tension!
Love you guys alot. Don't ever forget that no matter how god awful I am, I swear to you, I will always...always...love animals. ♥